I frequently apologize to my father for being a “bad kid”. I’m really not all bad, but he’s a good guy and I often feel like a disappointing fuck-up, thus the apology. This time he says to me, ‘I only see a reflection of my past. There’s still time to change the future.’ Now, my dad was a hard-working person who never really got to do what he really wanted, but at the same time puts off things that he “should” be doing all the time. So, what are you saying to me dad? Am I doomed? For fuck’s sake… that really bummed me out. ‘Change the future’ my ass, that’s hard when you’re depressed and shit.